The Lack Of….

It’s free week here and I thought I would blog about last week’s topic since I had missed it. If you could choose one thing you can no longer do and suddenly had the strength/time/resources to do once again, what would it be?

If we’re looking at something I can no longer do because I do not have the resources to do it then I think I would want to work with horses and other farm animals again. Growing up I was always around animals, I had a pet lamb that I had to bottle feed. I had a variety of pets. I always loved horses. My uncle had a few that I would go ride on occasion. One of my close friends in high school had a horse that I worked with for my agriculture project, gentling it. When I was a young mother I worked at the stables. I loved being around those majestic creatures. There was just something completely soothing about sharing your day with them. I even miss mucking out their stalls. That was the best job I ever had, nobody ever complained and any bad mood I was in melted away the second I got to work! I haven’t been on a horse since the stables closed. I simply don’t live in a place where I can keep one. The goal is to someday get the resources that I can be around them again, even rescue them from bad situations.

Now,  onto something that I can no longer do to lack of time/strength. I used to stay up all night long reading, I would pick up a book and read until it was finished. I’d write until the sun turned the eastern sky rosy. Now, I can’t do either. Lately, I’m constantly tired. Now, I know this comes with the autoimmune disease that I have, the lack of nutrients that my body needs to function, and so on but despite the fact that I am doing what needs to be done in order to improve I still don’t have the energy. I spend the day stifling yawns and forcing myself to get things done. When I have a minute and excitedly sit down to read or write, I find myself drifting off. Because of this I have fallen behind in both those areas. I find myself not wanting to do things that I had planned to do because I know I will be even more wiped out the next day. I can go spend the day at the fair but the next few days I will be so wiped out so I limit the extras that I do because I have to work and I work in a job that keeps me on my feet and moving for hours on end.

Is there anything that you that you wish you could still do?

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About Angela Schroeder

Angela Schroeder is a single mother of three. She was born and raised in Iowa in a river town known for its pearl buttons. Having four siblings, she never lacked for someone to play with. As she grew older, she found herself pulled into books and writing more and more. Her parents are her heroes, her siblings her confidants and tormentors, and her children are a wonderful blessing. Church is important to her children and her. They enjoy the friendships they’ve made with the people there. Writing has always been a passion. Her first experience was in fifth grade when she went to a one-day writing conference. After that she knew it was something she wanted to pursue.
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5 Responses to The Lack Of….

  1. Autoimmune… those are real kickers. Even if you are relatively lucky and don’t have major organ or skin involvement, they still sap you.
    Being a born and bred suburbanite, we had a dog, cats, caged birds and an occasional rodent while I was growing up. When I lived in Idaho, I ‘babysat’ the 3 young cows next door for a short time; the owners gave me permission to ‘spoil’ them by giving them cornstalks to eat.Then it was back to suburbia until here, where my next door neighbors had all kinds of animals. I bottle-fed a lamb, too.

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  2. Jeff Salter says:

    When I was about Junior High age, we kept a horse for the summer. Had a lot of fun, but she was not much more than an old nag. When she tired of us riding her, she’d just lay down and roll over. She threw me off once, but I don’t recall (anymore) the circumstances.
    Her name was Lady Luck.
    Her full time job was with the girls at St. Gertrude’s Catholic Academy for girls, somewhere out in the country east of Covington LA. During summers, when the girls were not in class, the Sisters would “farm” out the horses to citizens who were willing to feed them and exercise them.

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  3. Patricia Kiyono says:

    I hope you’re able to find answers to your healthy problems. It’s got to be so frustrating to have the desire and the time but no energy! As for animals, I can’t share your enthusiasm. I’ve never been able to stomach being around them and touching them with my bare hands raises my anxiety so much that I can feel my heart beating.

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  4. Elaine Cantrell says:

    I’d like to get back into horses myself.

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