It’s free week here and I thought I would blog about last week’s topic since I had missed it. If you could choose one thing you can no longer do and suddenly had the strength/time/resources to do once again, what would it be?
If we’re looking at something I can no longer do because I do not have the resources to do it then I think I would want to work with horses and other farm animals again. Growing up I was always around animals, I had a pet lamb that I had to bottle feed. I had a variety of pets. I always loved horses. My uncle had a few that I would go ride on occasion. One of my close friends in high school had a horse that I worked with for my agriculture project, gentling it. When I was a young mother I worked at the stables. I loved being around those majestic creatures. There was just something completely soothing about sharing your day with them. I even miss mucking out their stalls. That was the best job I ever had, nobody ever complained and any bad mood I was in melted away the second I got to work! I haven’t been on a horse since the stables closed. I simply don’t live in a place where I can keep one. The goal is to someday get the resources that I can be around them again, even rescue them from bad situations.
Now, onto something that I can no longer do to lack of time/strength. I used to stay up all night long reading, I would pick up a book and read until it was finished. I’d write until the sun turned the eastern sky rosy. Now, I can’t do either. Lately, I’m constantly tired. Now, I know this comes with the autoimmune disease that I have, the lack of nutrients that my body needs to function, and so on but despite the fact that I am doing what needs to be done in order to improve I still don’t have the energy. I spend the day stifling yawns and forcing myself to get things done. When I have a minute and excitedly sit down to read or write, I find myself drifting off. Because of this I have fallen behind in both those areas. I find myself not wanting to do things that I had planned to do because I know I will be even more wiped out the next day. I can go spend the day at the fair but the next few days I will be so wiped out so I limit the extras that I do because I have to work and I work in a job that keeps me on my feet and moving for hours on end.
Is there anything that you that you wish you could still do?