When asked what four words I would use to describe myself I draw a blank. I’ve never liked to describe myself. I honestly never know what to say. I’m not the same person I once was, not even from last January. This past year has changed so many people and so many things. I feel like I am discovering myself once again but let’s give this a shot.
Devoted: No matter what I try to be there for my family and my friends. I want to be a constant. I never want them to wonder if I will be there for them when they need someone. I know what it is like to feel that you are all alone in the world and I never want anyone that I care for to ever feel that way so I do what I can to let them know that I am here. Sometimes it is by taking the trash out, making a phone call, sending a letter in the mail, sneaking over to shovel their sidewalk, or baking some cookies; just a little something to let them know I care.
Eclectic: I have such an “odd” way of looking at life and doing things (or so I have been told). My style comes from so many different areas. My life and personality are like a patchwork quilt. So many different pieces that wouldn’t appear to fit together but once you see it as a whole it works beautifully. If I find something that I like I find a way to make it work. This ranges from my household decor, my clothing style, my library, even my own style of writing. I refuse to fit a mold, that would be boring.
Dreamer: I’ve always dreamed of going to different places, seeing different people. Every time I think of a new place that I want to go or get the hankering to move my youngest and I will look at each other and say “It’s time for new places and new faces.” We both love our home town. We love the people who are here but long to go out and explore the world. Meet new people and see places we have only ever read about. In the past year I have dreamed of so many trips that we will take once it is safe for our little family to travel.
Matriarch-in-training: I love hosting family gatherings. I thrive on family time. When I was young my grandma was the glue of the family. A few years after she passed the extended family seemed to begin to drift away. My mom is the glue to our immediate family. She hosts the most amazing Halloween gathering. We have so much fun. Christmas Eve is always a great time together. It is my goal to bring the entire family back together. I want my kids to know and be able to rely on their cousins the way I was able to. There were 21 of us on my dad’s side of the family alone and about 17 cousins on my mom’s side. My kids do not have as many first cousins but when we add in all of the second cousins and on down the line the family is huge. Right now I can’t host large gatherings, I don’t have the space for it. However, I can do smaller events. Cousin night is a fun one that we have planned for after the pandemic. One or two of my cousins will come over for the night and bring their kids. We will stay up like we used to, talking, laughing, playing, baking cookies and catching up while our kids get to know each other. I have bigger reunions planned as well. I want the extended family to be together once again.
I guess those are the four words that I feel best describe me at the moment. Do you have a hard time describing yourself? If you could only pick one word for yourself what would it be?