Our resident hound asked, “Can you picture yourself ever stopping writing (creatively)… and thinking, “Nah, I’m tired of writing. Maybe I’ll do something else.”?
As I mulled over this question, several different responses came to mind. I suppose that’s because I’ve been at this writing-for-publication thing for a few decades, and my daily life looks a lot different from the way it did at the end of the 20th century. I no longer work full time, and I no longer have children at home, but now there are other challenges, which I’ve mentioned before. I’ll share with you the various responses that came to mind.
First thought: No way I’d ever stop writing! It’s like breathing. This was obviously my mindset a few years ago, when I was churning out two or three books a year. I was retired from full-time teaching, my kids were grown, and I was thrilled to find something I enjoyed enough to spend hours at a time doing. I still enjoy the creative process, but get irritated when I’m not able to devote the time I need to concentrate long enough to finish it.
Second thought: I’m always multi-tasking anyway. So what if I have a million other things to do? I can brainstorm while doing housework, work on marketing while taking a break from other things, and write after hubby goes to bed. The problem now is that hubby doesn’t stay asleep. And when he’s awake, he needs help, so I need to stop whatever I’m doing. And most times, I forget whatever it was I was doing before the interruption.
Third thought: Maybe I’ll have to back off on writing, but not permanently. I have too much on my plate right now, but as soon as this crisis is over, I’ll get back to it. This has been my outlook for most of the past six months. Seems like whenever I sit down to do something, it doesn’t get finished until the third or fourth (or hundredth) time I sit down to work on it. I’ve had to hand over several volunteer duties over to other people lately because I simply can’t plan on having the time or energy to devote to them. I started writing this blog post on Wednesday, and now I’m scrambling to finish it on Sunday.
Fourth thought: I’m a big girl. I can handle this. The setbacks I’ve experienced lately are long-term. I need to learn how to set aside time for things that are important to me. If writing is important enough to me, I’ll make it happen somehow. I’ve had to cut back on some of my hobbies, and I might have to cut back even more. But if I have a story to tell, I will make it happen. Somehow. Because like any other author you may talk to, that’s how I roll.
I’ve been swinging back and forth between the third and fourth thoughts for the past few weeks. I get discouraged, and have to step away for weeks at a time in order to take care of things. But when they’re done, even temporarily, I’m always eager to return to the keyboard. So to answer the hound’s question: no, I’ve never been “tired of writing” or felt I’ve had enough of it. I have several partial stories on my hard drive that need to be finished — and I HATE leaving things unfinished!
Have you ever considered calling it quits on something that you love to do?